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A reason

All things happen, for a reason.

It might be divine intervention, or it could be just pure laziness to restart the process because your session has timed out. The latter took place during lunch time yesterday; about 24 hours ago. I decided it was finally time to book my flight tickets to Jakarta and Bali. I did the search, picked the flights, entered the relevant information but stopped short as I was getting hungry.

Then, just as I completed booking for the flight to Bali (from Jakarta, no less), I switched tabs to complete the booking for the other flight.

“Your session has timed out. Please restart the process”

Are the rough words of what was on the pop up. I got lazy and decided that I’d just do it when I get home.

Fast-forward to 19:42, message from Syafiq said, and I quote:

“In Flames coming to sg sia! July 20th”

My first thought was, “Shit. That’s the day I’d fly to Jakarta; in the morning!”

A bit of a back and forth later, I decided that I would skip the first day of We The Fest and go catch In Flames instead; flying off the next day. As it is, this would be In Flames first performance here in Singapore and when else would they be back? That got to me. Let’s just hope that I don’t end up missing Lorde, Odesza or the Neighbourhood.

Procrastination does pay off sometimes, heh.

P/S: just checked, definitely not missing Odesza as they’re performing in Singapore on the 20th as well! yassssss.


3 Months In

It has been just a little more than 3 months since I’ve started on this musical journey, effectively cutting back on perhaps another expensive hobby. It’s not a very wise decision, financially speaking, but it does make me feel good and that is enough, in my opinion.

Zul, why collect vinyl records when you already have Spotify Premium?

Good question! Am glad you asked that, lol.

For starters, I AM far from being an audiophile, I WILL NOT give you the argument that music played on vinyl sound crispier or warmer or has more bass. I don’t have perfect pitch and I still struggle to differentiate music tones from how bright it may be, how dark it may be or even how each of the instruments are perfectly in-sync to create a banger of a track. I know none of that. All I have are subjective opinions and not many might agree. What I do know, I am a lover music.

So back to the question, why vinyl records?

There’s something about holding a physical copy, in your hands, it just feels good. A therapy of sorts. One would argue, it’s another form of retail therapy. Sure, it’s not a very sound decision (pun intended) financially, but that’s what hobbies are sometimes, expensive.

Also, I can’t begin to truly describe how I feel when I watch the records I have, spin on the turntable. It still baffles me how a piece of plastic can contain such beautiful music. (Not really, just an exaggeration, I know how it works.) Plus, I do have a soft spot for some of the beautiful records out there. Multicoloured splatter on a clear vinyl record, oh my gosh, it’s just beautiful. That right there, is the second reason.

Audiophiles and other record collectors will argue that black vinyl will have the best audio quality and everything else, especially split pressings and splatter pressings cannot even hold a candle in audio quality. They are not wrong. Hands down, they are right. True aficionados will only have a handful of coloured vinyl against their mostly black collection. I am not one of them.

I am in it for the colours and the beautiful designs. Most of my records are coloured and only a couple are black.

What is in your collection?

As it has only been 3 months, my collection is still small and humble, but we’ve all got to start somewhere right?

What I have are as follows; in chronological order.

  1. Tame Impala – Currents (Box Set)
  2. Amateur Takes Control – ATC EP2
  3. Explosions in the Sky – The Earth Is Not A Cold Dead Place
  4. CHVRCHES – Every Open Eye
  5. MONO – Requiem For Hell
  6. Halsey – Hopeless Fountain Kingdom
  7. the XX – I See You (Box Set)
  8. ODESZA – A Moment Apart
  9. Stranger Things Season 2 Soundtrack
  10. Childish Gambino – Awaken, My Love!
  11. Paramore – After Laughter
  12. My Chemical Romance – I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love
  13. Khruangbin – Con Todo El Mundo
  14. Dirgahayu – Commemorate!
  15. The Crown Season Two Soundtrack
  16. Beach House – Devotion

So that is it for now. Quite a lot for something that began just before 2018 began.

What’s next?

Moving forward, I just hope that I will not get carried away with the collection and only buy records that I would really listen to. I don’t foresee myself having a collection of thousands, but rather a small, tight collection of records that I love.







a strong, innate desire to rove or travel about.

Is that what I’m currently feeling? that innate feeling and desire to travel.

The airport is literally one bus away from work, a travel time of less than half an hour. I’d be lying if I said I haven’t been at the airport for an extended lunch break, just so I could break my own heart; by not flying off to some foreign land.

I do want to travel the world and see what it has to offer. Experience the natural beauties such as the Aurora Borealis (Northern Lights) or its less famous (but equally as beautiful) counterpart, the Aurora Australis (Southern Lights). I want to see the various stadiums of the world, from San Siro to the Juventus Stadium to Nou Camp to Santiago Bernabeu to Waldstadion to Allianz-Arena to the Maracana. I can go on, and this post would be longer than I intend for it to be.

Well, my point is, I do feel the desire to travel and see the world, but ultimately, what I’m actually feeling now is the need to just escape. Go somewhere, relax and just forget my troubles and stress for the time being. Escape and recharge my batteries.

This not me saying that I want to run away from my problems and whatever that has been stressful and is causing me stress. By all means, stress is good, I got that from one of my favourite Ted talks ever.

[ih-skey-piz-uh m]

habitual diversion of the mind to purely imaginative activity or entertainment as an escape from reality or routine.

Well, that’s pretty much what it is. A chronic case of needing to escape. If one thinks about it really hard, we pretty much escape on a daily basis. At work, I always have Spotify on for two reason, (some) music helps me focus and well, the second, to escape. Music brings me to my happy place, in fact, there is an Alison Wonderland track of that exact same title; Happy Place.

The ritual of escaping continues at home as well. I’d continue with Spotify or I’d be playing games on the PS4 or the laptop. I would watch shows on Netflix or catch the latest episodes of the series that I’m following. Some might argue those aren’t really escaping the real world, but for the period you are engrossed in your gaming session or that hour you spent watching a mindfuck of an episode of Black Mirror, you have disconnect from reality, to an extent.

Your problems have been cast aside. You ARE in another world.


Well, it’s simple, really. I just want to board a plane, go some place, away from work and other stuff. Take a break. Chill, relax, breathe.

Everything else was just an attempt at me making sense of my thoughts. Next would be my thoughts on how I find sapiosexuals, pretentious. I kid. Or am I kidding?

Do you ever..

..get that feeling that you’re just not good enough?

That you’re not right, in many ways and form. Not right in the head, not right where you belong, not right-handed.

Lately, that has been bugging me. Talking to others about it helps as a form of distraction, but that’s exactly what it is, just a distraction. After the effects wear off, I’m back where I started, self-doubt.

They say that time will tell, but what if it tells me something I don’t want to hear. It tells me something devastating such as, “you should’ve seized your chance, but you let it slip, so it’s all going away.

Wise men say, only fools rush in..

well they are right. There isn’t a use jumping right into something, feet first, without scoping out the full situation and your environment.

But if you’re too cautious and don’t take risks, you lose out.

Though, as typical to my character, playing it safe, being chill about it, will be for the best.

“..but I can’t help, falling in love with you”

Haha! I had to complete the line. and no, I’m not falling in love with you, not yet at least.

Just need to tell myself that I shouldn’t get too comfortable as I will get clingy.

Just gotta chill and do my own stuff.


Stop, thinking too much.

Procrastination Part II

So I have been back from my trip for close to two weeks now, and I have to start on my post-trip review. Mind you, in my head, I was going to blog/write whenever I had time to sit down with a cup of coffee while I was there. (as you can tell, I didn’t do such a thing)

I have been kinda caught up with work and definitely not feeling very much into writing a post. Though, I have been occasionally sharing snippets from the trip on instagram.

See below:

Just me and the United Trinity. #awkwardfaceisawkward #GGMU #MUFC

A post shared by M. Zulfadly (@zullio) on

Well, that is a quick preview of what went down. A proper review is overdue and one that I will write up and post within the next few weeks.

till the next time,

-zullio 🙂


What is procrastination?

By definition:

  1. the action of delaying or postponing something 

It’s as simple as that. Putting off a task you’re supposed to complete at a certain time only to do it at a later date, that is procrastination.

What is procrastination to me?

Procrastination is not doing everything I’ve listed in head (yeah, I’ll have to work on putting it on a proper list) only to regret not doing it in the first place.

Procrastination is keeping all my ideas in my head and not jotting it down. I lose most if not all of my ideas. I really gotta work on this.

Procrastination is not starting this blog after a certain “hangout” so I can shade. But it’s all good now, live and and let live.

Procrastination is not picking up hobbies that I’ve been telling people I want to pick up but never actually made time for.


  • Ukulele
  • Modern Calligraphy
  • Electronic music
  • Solo adventure into post-rock
  • Videography / Photography

Procrastination is not planning and booking and researching about my upcoming trip.

Procrastination is everything and yet it doesn’t amount to much. Perhaps it’s just an excuse that I hide behind, because all I truly am is lazy.

It’s a character flaw that I truly have to work on but honestly, it has it’s perks too. Like, if I were to pick up all the above listed hobbies, I would have spent even more money, so in a sense, my bank account can thank me for being such a procrastinator.

Well that’s all that is in my mind currently.

Peace out.